additional motivation... in the form of sex, of course.

but not really. come on now.

I almost forgot how much fun it is to meet new people, which I haven't done in quite some time. I get along with strangers better than many other people, and while I have to admit sometimes it is very draining emotionally and psychologically to socialize with an entirely new person or group, it can be really enjoyable if you spin it the right way.

also, I almost forgot what it was like to be the object of someone's desire. there is absolutely no way in hell I will expand on what brings this up all of a sudden, but just know that it is still nice to be wanted. let's leave it at that.

tomorrow starts my return to the gym. now that I don't have school and I am wrapping up my work at Mission, I need to start getting back at it. I won't resume training with Chris for quite some time, so I am hoping that when I get back to him, I will not look like the same person that began with him four months ago. did I mention I have a personal trainer? yeah.

I guess the same person that motivated me to post this 2007 starter is the same person that prompted me to retool my gym and nutritional goals. I am by no means attracted to this young man, although let's face it, he is adorable and I am sure he gets female attention wherever he goes. you would be so surprised too -- you mean there is a decent-looking tall goofy-looking white guy out there that Monica isn't hot for??? yes, my friends, believe it. but meeting him made me stop to think. I mean, let's face it: I'm not going to spend the rest of my life with my wonderfully flawed yet fabulously not-for-me boys, i.e. Big D or the Kevolution, which means that somewhere out there at some time there is someone that I will be falling in love with and commiting myself to -- which consequently also means that I really need to work on what I look like on the outside so I can finally focus on who I am on the inside. cheezy, no? but so true. SO true.